When I felt disconnected from myself, couldn’t process my feelings, I turned to painting.
It literally has changed my life, it opened up so many ways to express myself, it helped me grief, (read more about me starting to paint after losing my father here). It taught me to connect to "me" again, to tap into my intuition, but it also gave me a whole new world of understanding other people being like me.
Being a sensitive and introvert person doesn’t make it easy to express yourself.
When you do not have or do not know a way to express all those feelings inside of you, things can be tough.
It feels like you are in a boat drifting away, further and further from yourself.
At least, that's how it could feel for me.
But quite soon I wanted to stop painting from pictures, it didn't feel like what I was supposed to paint. I wanted to paint without an example and not copying things. I didn't want to paint realistic anymore. I wanted to paint what I felt, to paint from inside is how I use to call it.
But how do you stop painting realistic and do you start painting from inside, intuitively?